Entered a new world of climbing in Kandersteg
As more and more of my followers in social media don´t speak Swedish I will write the next blog post in English. Social media as a platform is a channel where I can share my adventures, passion to explore the mountains, my beloved skiing and ski teaching and the adventure of being a female entrepreneur in the outdoor industry (Systrar i bergen AB). What I have seen is that I inspire others to follow their dreams and to that cause I try to write blog posts each and then to reach out.
I´m now home in Engelberg after two days well spent on ice. I don´t see myself as a competitive person, unless I attend a competition. Than I sure am a competitive person. But when I´m out in the mountains, I never compete.
As an entrepreneur, one of my strongest ”skill” is that I BRING IDEAS and DREAMS INTO LIFE. I never just talk about what I would like to do, I act. Always. Acting for me is about making plans to reach your goal, creating space to get time and sometimes even money and try to connect to people that can help me/you to get where I/you want.
Back to ice climbing. Early in the winter season I made a promised to myself, that I would go ice climbing at least once. Next winter I want to feel prepared to lead in ice climbing.
Pretty much close to the end of the ice climbing-season 18/19 I finally got the pieces together. Almost unbelievable. Because since november/december I did not only pay a spot into a ice climbing-course that where cancelled in Engelberg, searched for instructors in whole Sweden (and made contact with the all few 5 ice-instructors there are) and as the last piece that made it never happened – i worked every day in 6 weeks.
So, a week ago I made space in my calendar hoping that Martin, a mountain guide and friend from Chamonix, would like to join me for two days in Kandersteg, Switzerland. Which he did, and thanks to him I learnt a lot during our two days together. I improved from a newly beginner to a ”not-beginner” on ice.
It feels like I already been ice climbing before. Maybe, I finally get a little reward after all those hours I spent at the climbing gym in Stockholm during my work-trips. That reward tho, feels so damn good!
During my ice climb it felt like I got fast into the technique. But the most evolving part was that I step into my mental strength in a new level while being out in the exposed terrain.
Hanging vertical with crampons and two ice axes over 100 meter from the ground trying to pull out the next ice screw I started to question myself. Or my fear of heights did.
I tried to not loose my grip when my ”monkey-mind” went madly and told me that I was not good enough, that I should be afraid of the ice I didn´t know that well, that I was on a higher point from the first climbing pitch and fuck it´s so steep and what if my ice axes grip not holding, what if I fall and what about that I used to be frightened about heights… In one point I chose to go towards my negative thoughts. I started to breath calming, talking loudly to myself, encouraging that I sure could do this. So wisely I put positive energy back into my flow of climbing. Paus. Breathing. Slowly, with a even stronger focused I started to climb again. And suddenly I didn´t find it that hard anymore. I felt stronger and more relaxed to the situation. I overcome my fear and started to trust in myself again.
Climbing is the most mental challenging game I ever done. But when you start to change you mindset every time you feel stress and insecurity running over you – than I promise you that you CAN achieve whatever you want. You can always chose your thoughts.
I feel so humble each time I improve and develop a new insight, skill or technical movement in the mountains. I am forever grateful that I have this life and I love to live it to the fullest – in my next chapter of life I want to keep share my mountain passion with you! And that is why I want to become a mountain guide.